I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

开心和伤心都不是必然的，有时是值得还是不值得。在一起两个人都有付出，也不分多和少。
得到的也没差，伤心不是一个人，开心也永远不会是一个人。

Morning Routine.

so now, ill begins my daily routine.
rather than wasting time doing nothnig.
2 hours gym per day after class.
5 client per week.
make sure i revise this sem.
and copy all the notes.

i'll salute you.

thank you very much.

tonight the night.

I don't like the taste of the watermelon juice any longer.
the baked cheese rice taste like shit.
I don't like the crowded pasar malam anymore.
I don't personally favor the game store there as well.
I don't like the curry fish ball anymore...

NEW DAY.

It was a frozen breeze sunday morning, am i listening to IT IS WHAT IT IS by LIFEHOUSE A SOUNDTRACK from the series vampires diaries. It's complicated and i don't know how to describe the mood. what i should do next.
i hope you are doing fine.
i don't wanna be selfish.
i wanted to think on your side .
but somehow the urge is too strong.
stronger than i can ever handle.

i'm sorry again for everything.
i was wrong to think it is the way it is that .
i'll cherish every single moment that we spent together.

ps: we'll define the future as we speak =]

My own version of Jar of Heart.

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that is regret
And i know you are not myghost anymore
i lost the love I want the most

you learned to live half alive
And now I want you one more time

And who do I think I AM
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting my jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
I caught a cold
From the ice inside my soul
So don't turn back for me
cuz i dont deserve you

i am asking all around
you are anywhere to be found
But you have grown too strong
To ever fall back in my arms


=)

TF.

Matters that keeps the world at peace,does it keep mind at peace too?
by this, i remind myself that i have much to learn, learn to be a better person. by mean time i wish you can too. life is like candles in the wind. when its gone, its gone. I do hope that times will be on our side as we took off.
I convinced myself that i can do this.
but who knows whats gonna happened in the coming unknown future.
if i had to choose a power.
ill crave the power to read minds.
Besides, time travelling belongs to HIRO, i don't expect the world would be a better place.but i deeply truly madly hope life will be better for everyone of us.
do our best at mean time. and you worth the times.